Wow…

It is about 4:01 am Wednesday the 29th of December, 2011. I am experiencing something foreign right now, something… almost new. For I have only experienced this possibly a few times or maybe even not at all before this moment. As I sit here looking at former images of innocence that I once knew as a child, but had forgotten about since then, I have this feeling in my throat, a sort of flutter in my stomach, I start to tremble almost as I try so very hard to keep what seems as tears from forming from my eyes. Past childhood memories fly through my mind here, now there, I thought I had forgotten about them but just looking at what seems like a ordinary picture children’s book… I start to remember everything again. And now I can’t hold them back anymore, as tears start to form from my eyes just from looking at all of these what look just like simple items hold so many memories to them… Oh, the Places You’ll Go! By Dr.Seuss, the Giving Tree, The Fox and the Hound, and even mint chocolate chip ice cream. But a question still lingers with me are these tears out of sadness or memory?

First day of my life.

This is the first day of my life I swear I was born right in the doorway I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed They’re spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw I think I was blind before I met you Now I don’t know where I am I don’t know where I’ve been But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know That these things take forever I especially am slow But I realize that I need you And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night Just to meet me in the morning And I thought it was strange you said everything changed You felt as if you’d just woke up And you said this is the first day of my life I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you And I’d probably be happy

So if you want to be with me With these things there’s no telling We just have to wait and see But I’d rather be working for a paycheck Than waiting to win the lottery Besides maybe this time is different I mean I really think you like me