Looking at the glass full

Im not optimistic or cynical. I am a realist im the kind of person who when it comes yo my own life I look at the “glass” full. Half water/half air. And truth be told if you even try to tell me the bright side of everything I’ve ever gone through in my life so far im most likely going to tell you to go shove it up your ass. Until the day comes when you’ve actually experienced it all, im most likely not going to listen to you. But when that day does come, trust me I will be all ears. Intact id be more than happy to listen to you. Because do you even want to know everything I’ve had to go through in my life? I’ve had to deal with alchoholism, divorce, mental trauma , emotional trauma, death of family, death of friends, disease, illness, addiction, drugs, cancer of all sorts, having a bad who cheats and lies, loosing the ability to feel really anything anymore when I attend a funeral, and on top of ALL of that being known as the failure that wont even make it to college. I think the really sad part about all of this is that I don’t even get upset that much when I think about it. By the way if you think im talking about you, im not ok? Im just venting in generals right now.